Secrets

Trust? Trust shit. Don't trust people.

2011-03-24T23:24:00.004+08:00

Have you not loved me, ever?

I think this is the only place left.

The only place left where I talk, no one sees, no one cares, except God, and me.

Was it not me you loved?

I ask myself.

When I look back into my memories I ask myself.

Whose hands did you want to hold, when you took my hands?

Who did you hold close to your body, when you held me there and then?

Did you not love me?

Me?

Or her? Or the other her?

Who?

Why?

Why did I give everything to you, but all you left me was a broken heart?

Am I not good enough?

Atelphobia.

Did I mean nothing when our souls intertwine, our breaths mixed into a concoction of love?

Who did you think of?

You loved someone else?

One year.

For one whole year I thought you were the best.

For one whole year I was fooled.

I was going to be fooled some more.

Thank God for God.

I hate you.

I love you.

Whenever I doubt you, you say, "Why? Why do you not trust me?"

Then everything will be left in silence.

Then I give you the benefit of the doubt.

But where did you find your conscience to ask me that?

Aren't you fooling me?

Playing with me?

Weren't I always a doll?

I have nowhere to go.

I ask God.

God shows me.

But He loves you too.

And I hate that.

You deserved to be loved?

I'd like seeing you burn in hell forever.

But then I love you.

Why did you do this to me..?

Did I not love you?

They said I loved you so much it got annoying.

They knew but they never told me, "You know, he doesn't love you anymore."

At times I tell myself, I've forgotten.

Then when I look around me, almost everyone is getting fooled by boys.

I don't believe in anyone anymore.

Trust?

Not even my best friend.

There has never been trust in my life.

Family?

Trust?

Really?

Not that I know of.

Am I crazy?

I think I am.

Does cutting myself mean crazy?

No.

Does talking to myself mean crazy?

No.

Does looking down from the 13th floor everyday mean crazy?

No.

Does trusting people mean crazy?

Hell yeah.

I have no strength to move on anymore.

How?

Strength?

What's strength.

I'm a hypocrite.

Yes I smile.

I laugh.

They come from the bottom of my heart.

But at the end of the day, do I trust anyone, or anything at all?

No.

Crap.

All crap.

I'll be there forever.

Crap.

I love you.

Crap.

You're beautiful.

Crap.

You're loved.

Biggest crap.

What's love?

God?

Okay.

Then? Next? So?

What do I do?

I wake up at two, think about us, then ask myself, who, who did you hold, when you held in your arms?

You are my life.

2010-10-19T19:03:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!
LOL, I know there's no picture but that's only because I'm at the hospital using my aunt's laptop.
My ahma finished her op in the morning and I'm here to see her till the night until my mum comes at 10 plus 11?
My iPhone spoiled the other day and now I have no phone.
This led to a little bit of disagreements and arguments between me and BIBI cause there's no phone and we can't communicate and I guess we miss each other too much and we become pek check thts why ba ):
But tmrw my aunty gna give me her spare hello kitty phone LOL.
It's not rly me so yeah :)
My results were back today, not all but a couple of the core subjects.
English Paper 1 was so stupid!
Got 18/30 for compo and 19/30 for report writing -'-
The paper was difficult can.
But Paper 2, guess the results would turn out fine cuz' it's quite easy :)
AHAH.
Anyway I miss my BIBI, he's at muaythai training.
DOES HE MISS ME?
Well.. :}
LOL, I like tlking to myself like tht :P
I'm so sleepy now, had a stupid day at school.
Oh ya, the English Daze!
I had to go for this English competition during assembly and then when answering one of the questions I laughed into the microphone.
TOOPID LAUGHTER somemore!
Piang eh then the 1D boys behind me say I act cute -.-
Whatever la then when I look at the guy he say dare lai nia la hor,
Then I totally said STEP.
Then he shaddap.
Lame.
Anyway, I think this post long enough liao right?
Okay la I go stalk people liao xDD

I'll never leave you, even if you treat me the worst, I still love you.

Peace out.

2010-10-14T10:22:00.002+08:00

She's laid up in bed with a broken heart.

Hello everyone. I'm bored so I'm blogging again. got this thingy from huiying's blog :)

001. i miss somebody right now.

002. i watch more tv than i used to.

003. i love olives.

004. i love sleeping.

005. i own lots of books.

006. i wear glasses or contact lenses.

007. i love to play video games.

008. i’ve watched porn movies.

010. i have been in a threesome.

011. i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.

012. i believe honesty is the best policy.

013. i have acne free skin.

014. i like and respect al sharpton.

015. i curse frequently.

016.i’ve changed a lot mentally over the last year.

017. i have a hobby. but i don't make it as often as i can anymore

018. i’ve been told i have a nice butt.

019. i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

020. i’m really, really smart.

021. i’ve never broken anyone else’s bones.

022.i have a secret that i am ashamed to reveal.

023. i love rain.

024. i’m paranoid at times.

025. i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

026. i need money right now.

027. i love sushi

028. i talk really, really fast sometimes.

029. i have fresh breath in the morning.

030. i have semi-long hair.

032. i have at least one brother and/or sister.

033. i was born in a country outside of the u.s.

034. i shave my legs.

035. i have a twin.

037. i couldn’t survive without caller i.d.

038. i like the way that i look.

039. i have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.

041. i am usually pessimistic.

042. i have mood swings.

043. i think prostitution should be legalized.

044. i think britney spears is pretty.

045. i have cheated on a significant other.

046. i have a hidden talent.

047. i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.

048. i think that i’m popular.

049. i am currently single.

050. i have kissed someone of the same sex.

051. i enjoy talking on the phone.

052. i practically live in sweatpants or pj pants.

053. i love to shop.

054. i would rather shop than eat.

055. i would classify myself as ghetto.

056. i’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.

057. i’m obsessed with my blog!

058. i don’t hate anyone.

059. i’m a pretty good dancer.

060. i’m a horrible dancer.

061. i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.

062. i have a cell phone.

063. i watch much music on a daily basis.

064. i have cried myself to sleep before.

065. i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.

067. i have never been in a real relationship before.

068. i’ve rejected someone before.

069. i currently have a crush on someone.

070. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.

071. i want to have children in the future.

072. i have changed a diaper before.

073. i’ve had the cops called on me before.

074. i bite my nails.

076. i’m not allergic to anything deadly.

077. i have a lot to learn.

078. i have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.

080. i am very shy around the opposite sex.

081. i’m online 24/7, even as an away message.

082. i have at least 5 away messages saved.

083. i have tried alcohol before.

084. i have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.

085. i own the “south park” movie.

088. i enjoy country music.

089. i love my best friend(s).

090. i think that pizza hut has the best pizza.

091. i watch soap operas whenever i can.

092. i’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.

096. halloween is awesome because you get free candy.

097. i watch spongebob squarepants and i like it.

098. i have dated a close friend’s ex.

099. i’m happy as of this moment.

100. i have gone scuba diving.

101. i’ve had a crush on someone i’ve never met.

102. i’ve kissed someone i knew i shouldn’t.

103. i play a musical instrument.

104. i strongly dislike math.

105. i’m procrastinating on something right now.

106. i own and use a library card.

107. i fall in “lust” more than in “love”.

108. cheese enchiladas rock my socks.

109. i think the lord of the rings is one of the greatest things ever.

110. i’m obsessed with the tv show “lost.”

111. i am resentful that i have to grow up.

112. i am an entirely different person around different people.

113. i think the world would be a better place if people just smiled and meant it more often.

114. i think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.

115. i am suffering of a broken heart.

116. i am a nerd.

117. no matter where i am or who i’m with, i always seem to be lonely.

118. i am left handed and proud of it.

119. i don’t change who i am for someone else.

120. my heart resides below my feet.

121. i am a senior in school.

122. i enjoy smoothies.

123. i have gastritis.

124. i have nothing better to do with my time.

125. i am listening to radiohead right now.

126. most people call me by my middle name.

127. i once stole a music stand.

129. i love nascar!

130. i own over 200 cds.

131. i work 7 days a week.

132. i have mono.

132. i don’t have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.

133. people tell me i have a horrible sense of humor.

134. i’m only wearing underwear.

136. i’ve driven to a different state to see a band i liked.

137. i am the most over analytical person i know.

138. i believe in wasting time.

139. i don’t listen to too much music.

141. my favorite holiday isn’t christmas.

142. i prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.

143. i love sex.

144. i wanna go home.

145. i don’t know what i would do without my friends.

146. christmas threw up in my dorm room and i love it.

147. friends is (one of) my favorite tv shows.

148. i’m hungry.

149. i’m still angry about the nip/tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.

150. i’m a potterhead and proud of it!

151. i noticed there are several numbers missing from this list, making this very much not the 151st entry.

152. i lied about one of the items on this list.

153. my siblings are my best friends.

155. i have a problem expressing things.

156. i have lost a parent.

157. i am the most deprived person i know on the face of the planet.

158. i have at least one test tomorrow that i am not prepared for yet.

159. i love slim jims! even if they are really bad for you.

160. i am sick and tired of school so i am not going.

161. i love sundance.

162. i do not watch television.

163. i love starbucks coffee drinks.

164. i am living at least one lie right now.

168. i’m a little crazy.

169. i like the smell of white tic tacs.

170. i know at least one person in a “life or death” crises at this moment.

172. i always know all the gossip at my school/workplace/whatever, and nobody ever suspects it.

173. i have thought about suicide.

175. i can be selfish.

176. i’m so emo at times.

177. i can solve a 3x3 rubik’s cube.

179. i cheated on a test before.

181. i’m sick of drama

Ahahah. I'm bored. And I can't go to lan with my beeebeeee and chen and ck.

That made me cry.

Hah I'm crazy.

I think I over react sometimes.

Like the other time when my blackshot doesn't want to load,

I cried.

I'm nuts.

Tmrw is my last end of year paper!

Then it's fun all the way.

Truth is, actually, i don't rily like drama. I mean I love it but sometimes I dread going for drama. It's like the best CCA but sometimes I'm too tired.

I think I'm just rily lazy and mum says my hips are getting bigger cause I sit in front of this computer too much.

Gahh. :/

My life is once again sitting on the fence.

It's either gna get worse or better.

Hve been hanging out with trashologians and my babyboy :*

He finished his exam and got a lip piercing.

Nice piercing but stud is still basic.

Said he's gna change this sat so I guess he's not coming to church with me (N)

Uhm, I think I hve nothing to say anymore.

Oh before I go, listen to

For The First Time by The Script.

Peace out.

Alone.

2010-09-29T20:53:00.003+08:00

You're all I have.

Hiiiiiii!

I'm finally back.

I know this is certainly a very odd time to revive my blog and the next update is idon'tknowwhen but anyway!

HAHA.

Lol, kay.

So many things have happened.

I was used, backstabbed, all sorts of those shit.

But i'm still alive and life goes on and yeah here I am blogging again.

EOY is coming next wednesday and I haven't studied a shit.

But I don't think I will fail, I guess.

My maths has a adequate foundation and my science too so I'm praying that I'll get good grade for all of them.

And yeah I really wish that next year there'd be a lit class cause srsly, lit is the only choice i'm left with since I have a flair for writing.

On top of that is something very random.

My birthday is on a sunday :D

LOL.

Idk why thts gd but I guess Sundays are just rily gd'days.

And the other day the assembly was about some smoking thing.

The whole time I was like ._.

And Doreen was groping me everywhere and I kept screaming.

I was lucky Ms Leow didn't give me her fuckface.

And oh ya, I'm still with Ryan.

Next 14 it's gna be our 11 monthversary!

Right, i guess I have nothing more.

I'm going to rush out my home economics and geography or I'll be fried tmrw.

Peace out.

Battles.

2010-07-25T10:23:00.003+08:00

Nothing is worth my soul anymore, nobody's gonna make me cry no more.

Hello!

Okok I'm updating.

Life....

Just as I thought turned out for the worse.

This week has been one of those really hateful weeks.

More to come next week.

Anyway, I bet people are wondering the reason I cried on Friday.

Well.

I haven't told anyone and don't plan to tell anyone.

Sometimes there aren't any reason for certain things.

This world is whirling too fast.

And I'm one of those people who can never adapt to this hurricane.

I need to go slow, but if i don't catch up I won't even have to live.

My 24 hours.

Spent on smsing calling and a huge part to homework.

That huge part doesn't even belong to sleep.

How much has the world evolved?

When i was young all I had to do is listen and do.

Now I'd have to listen, tolerate, swallow, pressurise myself and do.

As much as pain can engulf me I wouldn't let it happen.

As much as I have to tolerate people I wouldn't cry.

As much as hate falls upon me I would never let myself hate.

Seems easy to be happy, but truth is nowadays it's easier to be sad.

Epilogue: She's finally given up. She's down with Misanthropy.

Peace out.

Bombastic.

2010-07-11T10:59:00.003+08:00

May seem like I have everything but everything is making me lose my self-esteem.

Hello.

I've been fine.

Still at the neutral state.

It seems like the neutral state is fine.

But it only makes me shake to think whether or not the next minute would be terrible.

Well.

My main purpose of this post is just to reply tags.

Continue tagging.

She doesn't know who.

@p3yi : Okay! (:

@Yonghui: Okay :D

@Yufang : Thanks!

@Hongyu : Thanks!! :D

@Alvina: LOL! haha.

@Yonghui: Sure thing! (:

@Emily: Updated. :D

@Honyu: Hongyuuuuu! Thanks! :D

Peace out.

Burn me up.

2010-07-04T23:35:00.004+08:00

You only have doubts when you start to know things. Ironic may seem but true it is.

Hello!

I have MIA-ed for so long.

Cuz I'm starting to think that there's actually nothing to do online.

Well.

Life has been fun.

It's kinda at the point where everything's neutral.

Where things can get better.

Where things can also become worse.

Hmm.

I don't know what to post?

Erm.

I got this really cool camp shirt from EJ camp.

Believe it's the MOST AWESOME shirt I have of all shirts in my closet.

It's a rily nice Jersey.

With Hebrew words Aleph-Tav at the back.

It means Alpha and Omega.

Which means Jesus.

And the number is 7.

Which means perfection.

I look so cool.

And uh.

I got my zone t-shirt!

Yay (Y)

And uh.

That's probably all.

I feel kinda sian nao.

Cuz everyone went to supperclub.

LOL.

I guess thts all.

I'll reply tags soon.

Peace out.

You breathe in and stood up, told me to stop crying.

2010-06-26T01:05:00.003+08:00

I don't know bout all this talks bout love but I sure do know you're the best i've ever had.

Hi again :D

This will be a very short post.

Okay.

So this is my last post before Monday since I hve to do project then.

I might or might not post la :D

Next is...

Er actually don't have la.

HAHA.

Just wna say I'm happy I found my boyf.

6 mths and going! :D

I can't wait for one full year of us being tgt :D

Hahah.

Alright I guess thts about it :D

I am very alive on facebook so yeah! :D

Peace out.

A blizzard that brought me and you together.

2010-06-24T11:11:00.001+08:00

You make me lie on green pastures, Lord you fill me with your presence.

Hiii :D

I know it's been lightyears since I posted again :D

So how has life been?

GREAT! :D
Haha!

I think my post today will be mainly bout EJ camp (:

So yeah, here goes, (if you wna know how much fun I had encountering Jesus ;D)

I will miss a little bit of this and that in my post but yeah I'll try to remember everything :D

So uhm.

I don't go by days but I'll probably like do an overall.

SO.

After this camp, my DARE group(it's like a group of teens grouped tgt based on their mrt lines so yeah mine is like the lower part of the NE/purple line) named E.L.A( eternally loved by Abba(Father)) has become more mature, sensible, and bonded (Y)

Okay so I hope you understand what i said above.

HAHA.

So erm yeah.

It was great la practically.

People who never experienced God's presence, experienced it!

And people who never got slain....Got slained!

*Slain=You fall and respond to whichever way you respond to the Holy spirit because God's power on you is soooo strong.

HAHA.

RYAN!

I hope you see this and erm ya I'm really proud you got slain, idk why but yeah :D

You encountered Jesus!

Continue to encounter Him in your everyday life (:

And erm, I'm rily happy that I get to serve God during ministering(getting prayed for) :D

I was one of the catchers( and of course I thought I couldn't do it.

Then it came to me that God told me to trust Him and pray in tongues(The Holy Spirit's language/ the unknown language)

And so I prayed subconciously for half an hr before catching someone :D

Then I got prayed for and for every ministering I got slained because I was actually already shaking even before getting prayed for.

The presence and anointing of God was so strong believe me everyone was crying and shaking not because it was cold ya know (:

And yeah during one of the ministering, Jesus HUGGED ME.

Omggggggg.

It was so warm :D

Another one was funny I was actually having a vacation with Jesus :D

How cool is that.

People in my dg(DARE grp) also got hugged by Jesus and all of them said they felt warm (:

During this camp we also had alot of fun laaa, like camwhoring and stuff (:

I think I PMS-ed during the camp so I had abit of attitude problems here and there during camp ):

And ya stupid things happened also la.

And Stefan was the one who puts up the show la.

He put soap on doors and luggage and stuff like tht and broke the lamp in the hotel. -.-

We all disliked him from quite awhile already and he came to KL to do all these crap -.-

But after that Audrey made us realised something la.

We do stupid things.

We OBVIOUSLY don't the forgiveness God gave us.

But He still forgives us and loves us.

Why not just forgive Stefan like how Jesus forgives us?

Although he doesn't deserve it la (:

And so ya all is said and done after the talk (:

And yeah we had loads of fun and we joked around like mad during this camp.

The sermons were great and we went up to Pastors to ask them stuff and talk to them (:

We also took photos with the musicians and ya (:

All on facebook! :D

So yeah I guess thts all.

Everyone has been soooo blessed (:

And I'm...Expecting more of Jesus in my coming days.

Cuz He's the same yesterday today and forever.

Peace out.

Dance in your freedom.

2010-06-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

I don't know. What's on your mind. What's with me. What's this feeling. What's going on.

Hello.

Holiday hasn't been good.

I had fever coming and going.

Then I had some conflicts.

I'm tired out.

Although all's fine now.

Something is going through my mind.

And I don't know what.

Makes me wanna scream.

Makes me wanna just go into a random boxing gym to get some asses kicked.

Makes me wanna just sit down and stare at the wall.

Makes me wanna sleep.

Makes me wanna cry.

Makes me happy.

Makes my heart beat pretty fast.

Who am I breathing for now?

I'm prepared.

I'm gonna step into EJ camp broken.

And I'll step out glorious.

You can say I've lost direction.

Just like a sail without wind.

A kid without parents.

I just want Jesus.

Peace out.

Cosmic conspiracy

2010-06-06T22:42:00.002+08:00

When it's all said and done, we'll all have a new revelation of who we really are.

HELLO!

I'm so happy! :D

I thought there were only satanic heavy metal songs.

I guess PLANETSHAKERS proved me wrong.

There're heavy metal WORSHIP songs! (Y)

Anyway.

It's 9 days to ENCOUNTER JESUS CAMP!

The name already sounds AWESOME enough.

:D :D :D

Looking forward to the CRAZIEST dance nights during praise and worship!!!

And Jesus will be there, you bet!

I'll bring my guitar all the way to KL also :D

WHOOOOO!

I'm bubbling with anticipation what God has for me there! (:

Hmm.

Let me see.

I think I have nothing more to post.

Oh yeah!

It's gonna be our 6th month! ;)

How fast time flies.

If Jesus doesn't wnt us to be tgt He wouldn't have blessed this r/s.

I believe.

Peace out.

Tags reply.

@Maegan: THANKS! :D

@Emily: HAHA, thanks :D

@YongHui: Oooh hi :D Thanks and erm, I'll tag and link you! (:

@Billy: Haa, thanks (:

@Yonghui: Thanks!(:

@HuiNing: Hey Hole! XD

You lived.

2010-06-03T13:06:00.002+08:00

You seem to start asking yourself again, when you've already got the answer.

Hello!

Now, for a clearer post.

So yes.

Day 1.

It was all about the kampong and stuff.

Quite cool, cause we don't have anymore kampongs in Singapore.

And I think we really fking sua ku.

See cow then "COW LEH!" " Where?! Where got?!" "Eh take picture take picture!"

HAHA.

Can't blame us, we really never see before.

Then we checked in early cause we didn't get to see the OilPalm plantation and the PaddyFields.

Here comes the stupid part.

Let's forget about the bathing and stuff.

Most importantly.

I wore PJs out.

PJ.

I think 2C is srsly the first grp of friends to see me in my MinnieMouse nightdress and TeddyBear long pants XD

HAHAHAAHAH.

And the teachers too of course (:

HAHA.

Then blabla shitshit next day.

My hair looked so AWESOME in the morning :D

Then breakfast, checkout, museums.

Quite cool.

Then lunch and Singapore.

I slept a total of 6 times in the bus back to Singapore.

-'-

Hmm.

Then homed after dinner outside.

I think thts all.

I'm too tired to go into details after the elearning thing.

I forgot today got the elearning then I woke up late and missed the 1st half of this crap.

But I completed the second half!

Hmm.

I guess thts all.

Tmrw I'll be out till night.

Oh ya.

Mum says she's trying to be my friend.

Quit trying Mum XD.

Peace out.

In you I live.

2010-06-02T23:35:00.002+08:00

When I can't breathe, I let you breathe for me. When I can't think, I let you fantasize with me.

Hello!

I missed you readers!

If there are even any -.-

So.

I've gone to Malacca.

No doubt it was quite fun.

With my whole class there.

Everyone was so high and everyone was so funny XD

But the weather, again, alomst took my life.

-'-

HAHA.

Photos on facebook la so go rip whatever, I don't care.

Hmm...

I think I'm too busy to post.

A clearer post tmrw morning :D

For naooz,

Peace out.

Best of both worlds.

2010-05-27T23:07:00.003+08:00

We wear a mask everywhere we go. We never take it off. But when time passes and the mask becomes a part of us, we put on another mask. Then it starts all over again. We'll never be able to take it off. It never existed in our memory.

Hellllooooo.

I'm officially telling you.

I am drained and sucked.

The Maths Trail sucked the hell outta my life.

I am so freaking tired I'm hving a blurry sight.

HAHAHA.

So funny.

LOL.

Anyway.

I decided my geek specs would be with me at all times because i absolutely do not want my Mum to steal it and say let's share when in the end it become her's.

But back to the topic.

Today except the kite-flying shit everything else was not fun.

SERIOUSLY.

The weather almost took my life.

I sweat like some bloody dog.

I admit for being forgetful and not wear my PE.

HEhhhh.

And God my internet suck balls.

-'-

HAHA.

Oh yeah.

Just a notification.

Tomorrow, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Next Saturday.

I AM BOOKED.

Yes.

It's EVERY SINGLE DAY.

See.

This is what happens when you are very friendly XD

HAHA.

So BHB.

HAHAAHAH.

That's me! ;D

Hmm...

Wht can I post?

I think no more.

Oh yeah.

LeePeiying.

I hope you can stop attracting attention by imitating the way I talk to people on the phone and shout in that small bus when everyone is trying to sleep. You said Doreen can't hear. I asked her in person she said you were so darn loud she had to move the phone away from her ears -.-

Not confronting you.

Just for your info (:

I still love you.

Peace out.

Sweet is sour.

2010-05-26T21:24:00.002+08:00

It was sex, drugs and rock'n'roll, now it's aids, crack and techno.

HIiiii!

HAHAHAHA.

School's gon be out last day tmrw!

HAHAHAHA.

Anyway.

I'm utterly sorry if I hadnt posted for a freeking million lightyears.

Everytime i wna post blogger cranks up on me.

Argh.

Anyway.

I never rmb Bird Days.

Except people who are so close to me.

Example Alvina, Parents,Grandmama,Boyf!

Today is Teo's BirdDay.

And as you can see.

Being such a busy and broke person, i am not able to buy him something.

In fact, I don't even know wht to buy him.

HAHA.

But guess wht.

HE BOUGHT ME MY GEEK SPECS.

I broke the other 3.

HAHA.

HE BOUGHT ME.

THANKS boyf.

Loves.

^-^

AND.

Can you believe it.

I use to fail english.

THIS YEAR MID YEAR.

GOT.

2ND.

IN.

CLASS.

FOR.

ENGLISH.

JESUS!!!!

HAHAHAAH.

Praise the Lord above.

How AWESOME that Man of no sin is.

I love YOU Jesus!

YOU ARE WHAT'S UP MAN!

The world has rily gotta knw who you are cause you are the new sekz yo!

HAHAHAH.

Oh btw.

I had social ettiqette(however you spell it) and personal grooming lesson today.

Kinda sleepy but was rather fun.

I think thts all.

And btw.

I just lost to Alvina's english by 0.1 mark -'-

But still I wna thank her for being so chim when she talks and helping me in my Compo and stuff like tht.

I love you MOFO boob.

Peace out.

Tags reply.

@Jenna: Yeah! :D

@Guest: Huh, which one? O.O

@pb: Uhmmm...I can't remember.... ._.

@Vanessa: HI! :D

@Rainy: Aiyaa, bi, don't scare people away! XD

@pb: Pls do not be intimidated, he was just kidding :D

Barely there.

2010-05-19T22:43:00.002+08:00

I can spin you like a rocket and stop you like a brake.

Nihaooooo.

I am very high naooz!

Forrr no stupiak reason XD

I love THE NOOSE.

Why must chut so many pattern?!

HAHAHAHA.

Mum Dad Boyfeee and Me loves THE NOOSE.

LALALALA.

I'm freeking bored.

And I'm sorry to SerWei and co. and JAWLM for not going out with y'all.

Jennananana you knw the reason la hor?

Hmmm.

I dont know wht to post.

I tmrw go out with Animals.

Friday go out for something.

Saturday collect guitar then class outing at Pasir Ris.

Actually still got alot others i just like reject like wht fuck.

Eeesh.

It's like hey wanna go out?

I lie lie lie, then they like oh okay nevermind.

I feel like a pangseh kia.

Saddddds.

Something random.

I'm talking to Shawn Wong naoooz.

He tell me his bday is coming in 10 days.

Like I care like tht lor :/

JUST KIDDING.

I think i hve nothing to post le.

Life's been good.

ALOT ALOT ALOT of people want jio me go 11 June SURGE 2.

Should I ?

Rebecca Kohhhh wna gimme discount leh (Y)

SHOULD I?

No I shouldn't.

LOL.

Made up my mind, ain't gon change.

Hmmm.

I think thts all.

Err.

Ya. Updates on facebook.

You should know I'm freaking active on facebook.

;)

P.S. Chikiat got new racist joke. Very cold one. -'-

Peace out.

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@Alvina: Cause I put the heart shape then the middle finger wht LOL.

@Emily: Hello woman! :D

@Rainy: Chill laa choubi (:

@Victoria: Thanks! ^-^ Basshunter actually quite long le laaa, just suddenly hear agn then fell in love with it agn XD

@Guest: Save the image you want? LOL.

Get up.

2010-05-18T10:13:00.002+08:00

Jump into the troubles, light them and bring hope.

Hello.

I'm currently... CONFUSED.

Or maybe you could say fed up (:

WHY?

Cause you see.

Too many people is booking me.

School.

Cliques.

Man sometimes I wish I didn't hve so much friends srsly.

Later they say I pangseh.

I made my choice le.

Whtevaa.

LALALA.

:D
Hmmm.

I think thts all.

Oh yeah, one thing.

Stop stalking me on the internet.

Just please add me on MSN and talk to me.

It's irritating when someone grabs your picture and puts it into his/her phone.

It's...

SCARY.

LOL.

Peace out.

Speak forth.

2010-05-17T11:42:00.002+08:00

I see the time capsule I kept, I kept to keep time from running, though it never works.

HELLLLo.

I had Science today.

I think I'll get a border line pass?

Hadn't been rily strong at it anw.

Pitbull's coming to Singapore tmrw!

Anyone bought tickets?

Cause I forgot to --"

My parents allowed me to go for the L.GaGa one at fort canning the other time.

I was too lazy to buy the tickets -.-

This time, I forget :X

I've nothing to do.

And nothing to blog.

So tata!

Peace out.

All right.

2010-05-16T10:56:00.003+08:00

Just like a thin layer of segregation between two worlds, just like us not being able to reach to each other, you were just another person I had to find using a mask.

Hihihihihihi.

Yes I'm back.

Sorry I didn't blog for a thousand years.

Parents not in town so yeah, I'm not at home.

And I'm not using a laptop.

So you can't blame me.

But I've been really alive on facebook.

Cause I have an iPhone, like duhh.

I think naooo the whole world is hving an iPhone.

Next an iPad.

I guess after tht it'd be the iTele.

Where the Tv would be a touchscreen one.

Cool or wht?

HAHA.

I think I'm srsly obsessed with David Guetta, Afrojack, Steve Aoki and Kesha.

I bet a thousand of you won't know who Steve Aoki or Afrojack is.

Then getta hell outta this place, cause they are the best DJs.

And I heard SURGE II coming up at WaveHouse.

June.

Hmmmm.

No I should stop WaveHousing and get on with life.

Srsly should i go?

I feel so nostalgic for the past week.

For no apparent reason I keep thinking that I'm still 7.

LAME.

God.

Something I found out though.

I love night outs.

I mean, who doesn't love tht?

I can't wait for chalets at other peeps birthdays and everyth.

Cause it's be all bout poker and laughing and slacking and meeting people.

And for an unknown reason i'm look forward to some sorta countdown party.

For wht countdown?

How I know.

And I think it's been yearrrrrrs since I went to the beach.

Random.

Oh yeah, trust me.

I AM GONNNA GO TO BUGIS DURING JUNE AND KILL THOSE HIGH WAIST AND SHIRTS.

Muahahaha.

I feeeeel evil.

LAME.

Whtever.

Life hadn't been boring, not yet exciting.

Anyways.

BLESSSSSSSSSSED BDAY KEREEEEEEEEN SOOOOOOOON.

Jesus shall RAISE YOU UP AS A STRONG WOMAN.

;)

And one funny thing!

Talking bout winks...

Wilfred met an indian old paedophile on the train.

He say the old man winked at him XD

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

Then he quickly alight.

XDXDXDXDXD

Imagine someone of the same sex, oldold one, wink at you.

WTFFFFF.

HAHAH.

Alright, thts all fr naooooz.

P.S. Boyfeeeeeeee's scared of worms and snails and snakes and hate SoyaBeanMilk.

TOOOOOOPEEEED.

Peace out.

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@CHLOE: Hello! (L)

@PeiYi: Hiiiiiii :D

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Silence break.

2010-05-08T10:53:00.003+08:00

Get those dirty glitter on the floor 'cause we gonna dance for them.

Hello.

I'm so bored that the only thing I can do is find random songs on Youtube, install random apps on my iPhone, update my iTunes, upgrade my iPhone version, eat, talk, Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter and idk what else.

As you can see I fell in love with Electronica and Bass all over again so my first song on the blog will be All I ever wanted by Bass Hunter.

It's so nice.

OMG.

And I fell in love with David Guetta's mix.

And Ke$ha.

And uhm BassHunter.

And TranceGenerators.

OMGawdz.

And I also fell in love with Chris Tomlin who obviously has nothing to do with Electronica and Bass and Trance but all to do with God :D

HAHAHA.

I think after this post I won't post anymore, I THINK.

I'm currently talking to Alvinaaaaa.

But still bored.

I miss my PIKACHU bag I used to play with when I was real young.

Random.

Who cares.

I wish David Guetta was my personal Dj :X

Mannnnnn.

Then i'd bring loads of PartyAnimals home.

Then I'd have a personal cleaner to clean my house.

HAHAHA.

I'm thinking too much.

I think I'm posting crap on my blog.

But shouldn't that be the way?

Cause when you grow up and go to work I think you wouldn't even hve time for crap.

And ya, my mum went to cut a freeekingly cool hair.

She looks hot.

Hot in a guy way.

I think her hair can win all the gangster gangster hair lo.

But I won't go and cut her kinda hair, I don't like short hair.

I think I'm still crapping.

RIGHT, since people ALWAYS post about school.

I'll do just tht.

School was... OKAY.

I can catch up with other subject other than maths I think.

And I love Chinese.

HAHA.

And I had 3 periods of English ytd.

I ALMOST FELL ASLEEP.

And for the first time I got 22/25 for summary.

How awesome can Jesus get man srsly.

Right I used the Thesaurus, BUT I USED IT FOR LESS THAN 10 WORDS.

HAHA.

School is boring let's talk crap.

I just changed my computer's equaliser settings to POWERFUL.

Now my headphones sound like Hi-Fi speakers.

It's like OMG.

HAHAHAH.

I srsly crap too much.

Off I am to studying.

Jiayou for exams people!

Peace out.

Amazing.

2010-05-07T19:04:00.003+08:00

It's amazing how smiles make us all us rhetorical questions we'd ask just to realise it's all true.

HI.

It's been soooo loooong.

EXAMS.

YES.

I guess i'll not be posting alot.

After exams I'll be posting like mad?

HAHA.

Bless all having exams.

Yeah, we're gonna do it for the glory of Jesus right?

I really don't know what to post?

Life haven't been exciting.

LOL.

Alright I'm gonna study.

I think.

Peace out.

Perfect.

2010-05-01T22:23:00.002+08:00

Your off-shoulder looks give me the choke in the throat.

Hello.

Today.

Was.

Awesome.

I feel so refreshed by God's anointing.

I have so much to say but I won't be typing it out.

Cause I'm kinda tired but yeah (:

Realised I am much loved by the people around me {:

I know it's very stupid to only realise it now.

But at leastit's never too late aye?

Today I smiled again like never before.

Today I had a fresh new revelation.

Today, I fell in love with Jesus ALL over again.

HAHA.

Isn't that cool.

I srsly hve a study feeling now.

LAWLS.

Tomorrow my day is devoted to work, Monday to project and God and play.

I'm not hangin out round town cause been sucking my father's money like a leech.

Gonna buck up in maths.

(Y)

Right I srsly nda bathe or something.

I smell.

Like sweat.

EEE.

Rights,I love you people.

Peace out.

Let you down.

2010-04-30T22:57:00.003+08:00

Life full of laughter.

Hey.

Yes I hvent posted for 6 or 7 days.

I know.

Laughs. (:

This week has been a terrible one.

Many break downs but who gives a shit.

Life still continues, the Lord is still here, I'm still breathing.

There's no way you could turn things around back in time or undo the things you did aye?

Hahh.

I've been quite emotional, whether puberty or not, it's not my bullshit.

It's human instinct.

And guess what?

I found some nostalgic things I hve.

A hell load of cartridges for my gameboy advance :D

Well.

I think it's kinda out right?

Man.

There's church tmrw! :D

I've been looking forward to it since last Sunday.

Why?

Cause Monday's gon be terrible, I knew it right from the start yeah.

But it's all over naooz.

I'm back to me and me back to I.

I srsly don't know wht to post.

So I'll post when I hve something to post.

Monday's a holiday so enjoy! (:

Peace out.

Pass out.

2010-04-24T10:29:00.002+08:00

If you can't let go of someone's past, just forget about holding that heart you always wanted to touch.

Hihihihihihi!

Sorry I've not posted for awhile.

Just rather cranked up lately.

My life's abit of a hoo-haa lately.

Due to stress though.

Negative.

But alright, it's okay naoo.

Mids are coming so everyone's gotta be ready.

No doubt me too.

So yeah, homeworking and revising and stuff.

A little heavy but well gotta work with stress and all.

Hmm.

Have been quite exhausted lately due to fever as well.

People thought I was emo or some sort.

Well, not exactly maybe just very cranked up in my brain somewhere.

Other than tht my liveliness is gone due to fever.

It's alright naoo though, my fever is down.

This week has been tiring.

But next week's gonna be better!

I shall live in glory after glory (:

And for those atheists to know.

You can't see God.

-..-

If you see God, YOU ARE ALREADY DEAD IDIOT.

You can't hear Him.

What we mean when God speaks to us is different from how beings speak to each other.

So you gotta clear that out of your small mind yeah?

Mountain tortoise ^^

LOL.

Let me see.

That's all la.

I don't rily hve anyt to say le.

I'll reply tags and off I go.

Cya real soon.

I'll be updating myself on facebook so yeah just keep facebooking :D

Peace out.

Tags reply.

@PeiYi: Hiiiiii :D

@Shawn: Thanks, IDIOT (:

@Weiqi: Okay! (:

@Emily: Ok dear! :D

Down to earth.

2010-04-16T22:57:00.004+08:00

Be my party animal - Drink, Dance, Strip.

Hello.

I'm sorry I never post for a thousand donkey years ._.

I busy with this and that ma.

I think after this post it'll be yet another thousand donkey years.

LOL.

Anyway,

I am very busy.

With what?

Homework, CCA, projects, bullshit, gossip and lots more.

Oh yeah.

And crap, mid years are crawling near.

Crap.

I think I srsly nda self-study le.

I can't catch up in school cause for quite a load of lessons I fell asleep in between -.-

I sit at the front row somemore.

I know, call me zaister ;)

HAH.

I think I not really as stress as last year cause I hve a motivator, stress reliever and buddy this year. (You know who you are :D)

Oh yeah and during these days that I didn't post, I came across some friends I lost contact with.

Some are doing well, some ain't.

But aye, this life should be fun right?

Enjoy life guys! Double (Y)!

Just an update on my personal life,

Yes, I'm still dancing.

Definitely when I have the time, skateboard.

Btw, I HATE PE.

Seriously.

I wish PE was something illegal _|_

I had a long day today.

Sports day in the morning, out in town at noon.

Guess I'll get back my energy serving tmrw!

Finally, CHURCH.

And yet another long day tmrw.

Oh, to those who think I'm fake.

You only think I'm fake cause I'm always happy.

I do get sad.

But it's so RARE, it's not even part of my emotions.

And if you think I lie about myself.

Do I really have the need to manipulate my personality? :D

Guess this is all, my head is dropping and my eyelids are real heavy.

Peace out.

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@Maegan : Sure! (:

@Belmont : Thanks! v^^v

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@YiJia : Hey sweet! Thanks for the tag and will link once I find your link (:

@HongYu : Supp GaGaFreak! Thanks for tag and will link ;)

@Elitz : YOH, thanks loads! :D

You will find infinity.

2010-04-11T10:27:00.002+08:00

You can never fully understand a man, unless you look at things from his point of view.

Hi.

I don't know how to start.

Not like I'd use to.

Because it's an achievement.

We all made.

Rehearsals.

We always complained about them.

Really tiring.

But yesterday.

That very moment I stepped on the stage again.

My mind brought me back to those rehearsals.

Yes.

We got scolded.

Chided.

But it was ALL, all for this show.

The show of how a girl died.

How she died when she wasn't suppposed to.

How desperate she was just to live another day.

She had nothing left.

Except HOPE.

Cranes.

Her cranes.

She folded cranes.

644.

And there goes her life.

It was never about reading the lines, never about acting, never about remembering the blocking.

Because it means nothing if you can't feel it.

Just how desperate Sadako was.

How much she wanted to live.

How much she wanted to win the race.

And we brought out this heart-wrenching story to everyone.

It's an achievement.

A great one.

Cause we did it.

We made it.

I love you DRAMA.

I love you SENIORS.

I love you CLAUDE GIRARDI.

I love you SAMANTHA SCOTT-BLACKHALL.

And before I forget,

someone once asked me the meaning of acting.

You're never yourself on stage.

You're taking someone else into you.

You are that person.

This world isn't real anymore.

You are in that world that person lived in.

Peace out.

Dance your last.

2010-04-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

Dance your last, breathe those lies.

Hello.

I have been very busy.

But at the same time it has been a learning journey.

I realise,

I learn to become more patient.

I learn to become more understanding.

And also in a way, to look at someone from yet another angle.

We changed seats again.

Now seating in rows of 4 (:

I'm stuck between two guys, Donovan & PimYan.

I thought they were crappy people.

Looked at them in another way though and found that they aren't really that crappy.

Their nice (:

Brendan isn't tht weird either.

He's nice! :D

Well everyrone who looks crappy to me or lookED crappy to me, are nice :D

I guess we should really hve some class bonding sessions.

I bet our class spirit from last year will come back agn :D

LULs.

Today got people at our side toilet huhu agn. ┌П┐(•_•)┌П┐

EEsh.

Abit pissed la.

Like walao, can go somewhere else?

AND, my school just spread a SMS to all girls not to go my floor near DnT room de toilet to change.

O.O

Got pervert meh.

LOL.

Anyway, live your life.

I nda rush.

Balls.

Peace out.

Heart.

2010-04-03T23:18:00.003+08:00

I have no reason, but I'm starting to panic.

Hi.

I shall tell you the climax of today.

The most xia suay part ;)

So we thought the level outting was quite lame.

So we decided to zao.

Then Yz and Emily zao.

Rest follow, EXCEPT Chikiat.

So we escape le, decided to do MissionImpossible.

Ryan would save Chikiat.

Then he say Chikiat tio caught agn.

-.-

So we just meet Ryan at the shop and plan later.

Pb how we know Audrey came along.

Sia lah, we all run.

PST, I trip over David shoes fall with my BUTT UP.

┌П┐(•_•)┌П┐

Sibeh laokui laaa!

Ps max.

Get up run again.

Waa, Audrey coming.

Wanted hide in Girl's Toilet with the rest.

Scared tio caught go Lobby.

Then in the end others came in except the Em and Yz.

Then went out, turn ourselves in.

We say sorry to Audrey.

Of course la, like feel so bad leh, make her run round Suntec find us.

Then she talked to us.

Reflect and thought we shouldn't hve been so bad.

Then go the level outing awhile.

Then other you figure out yourselves.

LOL.

These few days I've been thinking alot.

Thanking alotalot.

More than the usual.

I thought about school.

About Drama.

About my life.

About the heart of a human.

About the soul of a man.

About church.

About people.

I found out so many things through thinking.

That many many things.

Manymanymany things are done, for a purpose.

And many things as well, done without a purpose, but done to impress.

I'm lost after thinking as well even though at the same time ironically standing firm on a theory.

Lost.

By the fact that people can be really easily deceived by the evil.

That all people are gullible in certain and particular areas.

That I was never meant to be who i was and somehow who I am.

That I ain't suppose to do somethings but have gone so far into doing it i can't stop.

I think I'll stop here.

I'll just pray over the night.

Over my thoughts.

Over people.

Peace out.

Stop calling.

2010-03-31T22:56:00.002+08:00

If you're tired, both physically and mentally, breathe.

HELLO.

If i don't post in a long time,

DON'T SCOLD ME.

I am busy and shag maximum.

Nincompoop la.

Let me post up my schedule.

Thursday 1/4/10 - drama after school till 6.30

Friday 2/4/10 - Out from morning till late night.

Saturday 3/4/10 - Drama in the morning, church in the afternoon.

Sunday 4/4/10 - RELAX (Y)

Monday-Friday - Combined Rehearsals & Full Dress Rehearsals.

Saturday - Actual Public Performance.

Right it looks short but hey loook,

next WHOLE week I'll be killing myself with rehearsals.

Today's dry run for the technical rehearsals was the lousy.

Cause we shitty didn't understand how the stage would look like cause they used tape to indicate the stage but nobody told us which tape marked what.

Second, other CCAs too noisy, plus we never project, plus stage srsly very big.

Ransitions fail cause stage is srsly VERY HUGE _|_

ARGHFZXCS, Cher say some not commited enough.

Shitzxcs.

I think I should stop thinking.

LOL.

Okay.

Gtg,

Peace out.

Feminine power.

2010-03-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

One smile, laughter, whine, cry, can make you fall down.

Hello.

School starts tmrw.

Shag maximum.

Blessed week humans v^^v

HAH.

Today I was in town.

I movied with an idiot.

We watched Alice in Wonderland.

But we paid for the seats to talk and such only.

Lulzz(:

We watched some part though.

I wanna watch it agn.

Cause I din rily get why there was even a WHITE QUEEN.

Lulzz.

Then rest of the day you imagine by yourself.

I'm too lazy.

But today was AWESOME (:

Somehow tht you don't know.

My mum bought me a bag.

WOW.

No, she lemme choose between two bags and I ended choosing the cutecute one.

But style de.

It's abit AhLian to me.

But I still like it.

Think wht you like if you don't know me (:

My mum suddenly wants to please me.

Shock maximum.

Lol.

Anw,

I think I gtg.

Peace out.

Tags reply.

@Jenna: Lulz (: Hanahhanah, like YOU not rude xD

@Emily: -Replied on facebook-

@Maegan: Link is? :D

@SenYao: THANKS DUDE, long time no chat on phone (:

@Somebody: Love you too for being random (:

@Junxiang: YOYOYOYO! xD Thankews :>

Roll the police.

2010-03-27T10:39:00.003+08:00

If bored was a person, it'd be my best friend.

Hi.

Today everyone pon DG.

So I pon.

And guess wht naooo.

I HAVE NOTHING TO DO.

_|_

I was supposed to meet someone.

That person got training -.-

And I hve to wait for tht person to finish training.

Then I can go.

WALAO.

I srsly hate bored.

There is nothing to do!

Study?

That's for sunday.

Cause there is nothing to do on Sunday.

I hve the entire sunday to do whteva I want.

Saturdays are for fun.

And guess wht my weekend is ruined by Mr.Bored.

_|_

I've actually thought of going out alone.

But tht'd be boring.

I'd end up talking to myself --"

Arghfzxcs.

and from the above pic you think fxck is an option?

NO.

-.-

Enough of crapping,

I'll do other things -.-

Peace out.

2010-03-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

Twice of you, makes me the weaker being.

HELLO!

Zomgs, you don't know how happy I am naoooz! (:

I just found another web and they hve a fxcking thousand awesome pics :D

The above is one (:

So the posts for the rest of my life will be funny+cool+vintage (:

;)

So.

Today the school anniversary was BORING.

We just had to go for the parade.

Alvina and I asked the same stupid question.

What's the meaning of the parade?

We srsly don't understand wht it has to do with the school anni except waste my freaking time.

And shit I just realised I forget to put my compo in Mdm Shahnaaz's pigeon hole.

_|_

I feel like eating my backside naoo.

I did it with seriousness and all I get is forgetting to hand it up?!

WOW. -.-

I guess Monday she'll think I either handed in late or didn't do that day.

Right.

Oh ya and guess wht.

I think the NA and NT sec ones are a fxck.

they hve no respect for seniors.

Guess wht they call us zhabor.

_|_

STFU pb.

If you're shorter than us with a fxcking mushroom head trying to act like you chup some gang, STFU.

Wht's wrong with your mouth?

And your brains.

Do you even hve balls?

-.-

I'm getting more and more pissed nehmind.

Pb, make us stay back.

Anyways,

had dinner aft tht.

Homed.

Chatted with people (:

LULs.(:

Okay, I nda go naooz.

Bitch soon.

Peace out.

Never enough.

2010-03-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

You are an overlap of lies and force believe.

Hello.

Tmrw I hve no school :D

Cause school anni.

Anyway, we have finished blocking the whole public performance play! (:

(Y)

We've worked so hard.

It's just left with some bits to be done yeah ? :D

Today my blog post shall be about lies and believe.

I see that it's a important issue between realationships, be it friends, family etc.

LIES.

I met people who lie through their teeth.

They can even add some drama into it!

However, those who lie through their teeth, are always my closest friends.

It's like indelible ink stained onto a blank sheet of white paper.

You never forget how their faces look like when they actually tell you something.

Agreed?

BELIEVE.

MANY relationships, FORCE YOU TO BELIEVE.

How?

They'd say things like:

"So you don't believe me lah ?"

"Now i know you don't trust me at all."

And when you really start believing them so deep and find out it's just a shitty lie,

you really can't help but kick tht girl's face or tht guy's balls.

Another situation is when you're forced to believe when you know deep inside everything is a lie.

Literally, you brainwash yourself.

You're being a hypocrite.

But look in the first place this idiot who is lying forced you to believe.

How fascinating is human nature.

Name me anyone who doesn't lie.

No one.

It's not about lying or not.

It's how pain the lie would hurt someone.

Another kind of lie never surfaces up.

It's not even a lie I guess.

When somebody keeps something from you,

it hurts as deep as a lie would.

It's also a lie, cause when you ask the idiot who's keeping something from you why OR wht ,

the first reply is the most simple and most painful one.

NOTHING.

Nonetheless, who hasn't been the idiot who keeps things from people.

Excluding those who really are that pure.

But again.

It's how painful the news you keep from somebody hurts.

HAHA.

I think I crapped too much.

But go think bout wht I hve been thinking for so long.

It pays to lie.

Peace out.

Screams of affection.

2010-03-24T22:30:00.003+08:00

Point the middle finger way up high, show me some bad ass attitude.

HELLO.

HAHA, my parents are out naoz.

that means I hve the time to post.

but I'll still sleep at the time they want me to sleeep.

Imma goodgirl ;)

Bullshit la xD

Right so, these few days, QUITE busy (:

Chiong homework like dog.

Waaa, come back school so many gossip bout me sia.

Hmmmm...

Got more gossip bout other people alsoo :D

Keep my mouth shut here :x

We changed seats today.

I'm 75% pleased with my seat.

Yes I'm sitting ALL THE WAY to the front naoo.

Better than last time ALL THE WAY to the back --"

Can't Mdm Shahnaaz see I'm SHORT ?

I'm 155 ._.

Eeesh.

Where does the 15% go?

10% - I AM SITTING WITH BRENDAN, who am I gon talk to when the lesson is boring or when there is free period but I can't move around ?! (FYI, BRENDAN doesn't talk FTW)

5%-Chers can see me use phone ( WALAOOO.)

But still happy laa, at least nao i can see and hear.

Prayers do work leh.

After school homed with Kaiting, cause practically my class 3/4 went for school anniversary rehearsal _|_

Then we ate at macs before home (:

Home le, sleep from 4 to 7.

I slept and woke up the same time as Rainynynyny (:

Fated la ;>

Luls (:

Then bathe eat , SLACK.

I hve no homework.

Have la is pack file but I bet Alvinaa never file so I shall die with her if she dies (:

If she got file I aft school file lorrrr (:

Imma procrastinator, WHT TO DO?

Then chat with Rainynyny.

Man, Rainy got stomachache DD;

I'll pray for you! (:

Okay,

I shall pray for the week and tmrw schoolday as well.

It's time, to sleeeep (:

This is it.

Peace out.

Get to that one thing.

2010-03-21T11:29:00.003+08:00

Till you give me back my senses, I'll wait here.

Hi.

I am srsly very bored.

I can't take it anymore.

I rily bored to tears.

Yawn like a hundred freaking times.

Btw, this will be my last post before school starts.

Next post might be late.

But I'll see how it goes.

Realised I could actually post with my iPhone.

Someone told me I can't.

Lul (:

So if your mother is free, I'll post.

Guess what?

I think hols are a gazillion times more tiring than school days.

Why must teeechers rob our time and youth on studying, DURING HOLS ?

That's just stupid.

Adolescence is something you'll never get back when you grow up ):

You'll never be able to laugh with your friends and talk to them like you would again when you grow up.

Adulthood sucks.

Teenagers should be more happy :D

LIKE ME :D

There's not alot to care.

Smile in the mirror 3 times a day.

I do that.

Every single day.

Lights up your day ;]
Obstacles?

Problems?

Blaming God?

Asking people WHY?

Problems are there to make you learn.

Strengthen you.

How the hell would you learn how to not fall, WITHOUT FALLING?

Doesn't it make sense.

Everything and situation given to you has its way to build you in certain areas :D

I know everyone is posting,

SCHOOL STARTS TMRW T_T

Something like tht.

But I guess I should bless you with this post.

Have an AWESOME week.

Even if it would be tiring.

Cause i know it'll be for me.

School is nothing,

Jiayou BOOBS !

Peace out.

I'm painting flowers for you.

2010-03-20T23:02:00.003+08:00

If this was my last breath, if i could never say bye, if I could never see you again, I'd paint flowers for you.

Hello.

TODAY svc was AWESOME.

Lul (:

Service is always awesome.

OMG guess wht.

I just listened to some funny chinese song tht I think once appeared on the newspaper.

I ALMOST CRIED.

Ftw lor.

SO touching ;')

Ahah.

Just now go irritate Emily :D

Obviously like she said IRRITATING BIATCH on my facebook wall -.-

Lul (:

Hai, PAPA phone got confiscated ):

Sianzxcs ttm.

Naooo only can call.

AWW MAN.

Understand la I mean like no phone rily like no life LUL.

I'm tired ):

I'll post more.

MISSES.

Peace out.

Sorry doesn't cure.

2010-03-17T10:43:00.002+08:00

Refresh me, let me become a stronghold.

Hi.

I had intensive drama training.

& yesterday alr felt like dying.

But listening to the sermon now,

I guess I should say,

THE INTENSIVE TRAINING SHALL BE FUN.

for We Must Speak What We Want, NOT WHAT YOU SEE!

I'm so very busy these few days.

So if there's anything,

CALL ME.

Don't text,

I'm afraid I won't even reply you.

SHAG.

Peace out.

One Last Dance.

2010-03-16T11:05:00.003+08:00

Nobody can take yesterday, they can take anything but the one last dance we had.

Hello.

Yesterday I was out.

It was a day I'll never forget.

Cause I experienced peace and tranquility I've never had in years.

It was like time stopped.

I haven't seen the sea for awhile.

But too bad the rain was a spoiler.

So gotta hide in the shelter.

Out when there's no rain.

RAIN AGAIN.

Go in.

Drizzzzle.

Torrential rain.

Stop.

Out.

Walked our way to Palawan.

Ate at kofu.

Left for Siloso again.

By this time passed Wave House a thousand times alr.

I WAS SO TEMPTED TO GO IN.

Omgzzz.

Then sat on the sand for awhile.

Went back Vivo.

Looked for books.

Nowadays lotsa books to buy no money only ):

Then homed.

HAHA.

SHAG man.

Alright.

Sorry for the short brief.

Cause i'm busy memorising lines.

INTENSIVE drama training from tues to thurs.

Homgzzz.

Peace out.

I'm honeymoney.

2010-03-14T23:07:00.002+08:00

You're my moneyhoney.

Hello!

My picture nice hor ?

Okay, I'll blog bout yesterday & today(:

313 concert:

Met for subway.

Some ate 7eleven (:

Queued, hall 9 :D

Sam text me tht she's late D:

Went in collected free gift :D

Pencilbox again :D

So niceee!

Sam say cannot come T.T

Eye pain, but GWS babe!

FYI, pics in facebook.

Right then first up, a play :D

So touching I cried lor.

The guy like a mute girl.

Then very funny also (:

Then JJ Lin!

OMG.

HE IS SO HOT.

CUTE.

OMG.

Then he sing.

Then he talked bout Jesus.

Then he sang.

Then he sang again.

SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM (:

Then PASTOR MARK ! :D

So funny lor :D

Then he preached bout LOVE.

Hehhhh :D

Then praise and worship, IN CHINESE.

Sibeh weird.

Then go changi airport slack (Y)

Then double choco plus mc chicken ;)

Then cabbed home separately with Ryan and Nic , while Yz and Ck tgt.

The others went home earlier while Belle was still in Airport waiting fr mum to knock off.

Then use comp.

ZZZ, sleep (:

Today:

Passed Alv my books (:

Trained with Emily to Bugis.

Go Village.

Walked round.

I WANT THE CAP SPRAY MY NAME DE.

$35 ):

Sadded.

Then walked round.

Found wht I want :D

Walked round.

Sugarcaned.

Walked back to Bugis Junction.

Buy pens.

NOT PENIS.

Lmao.

Then go food junction there.

Had mushroom soup and garlic bread.

Slcked.

Gamed.

Homed (:

P.s. Emily thanks for slapping my face a hundred fxcking times :|

Right, I changing blogskin and going to do something else.

So,

Peace out.

Radar.

2010-03-13T09:50:00.004+08:00

All I ever wanted, was a life full of laughter.

Hi hi hi.
I know, I MIA-ed awhile.
I've been real busy.
So busy I broke down so many times this week.
Yes, emo.
I hate that word.
LOL.
I lost my life.
As in my hyper active.
I hate exams.
Who doesn't?
And great tmrw there is Geog test.
I lost my notes.
Great.
HAH.
I left my History Workbook in school!
WOW.
Forget it.
I can't seem to care anymore (:
Let's just live life easy.
If the HOD wants to make life difficult, I can't do anything.
Anyways.
I won't reply sms this few days unless you are important or your messages are important.
Calling is preferred.
I'm starting to hate school.
But I will still study and mug.
For my future.
I can't care anymore.
Stress then stress lor.
And please don't try me.
Anger that tops stress means death for you.
You don't want that do you? :D

Peace out.

The end is here.

2010-03-13T09:50:00.003+08:00

Resonate the outburst.

Hello!

I'm back to normal.

LOL.

Laughs:D

313 concert today ! :D

Arghfzxcs.

Tell you something sad D:

Alvina can't go and I alr bought her the ticket !):

MAN!

Since everyone's got the ticket,

I can't give the tix to anybody else le.

So I hve no choice but to sell to Alvinaaa ):

Sorry for all those stupid posts.

Was under loads of pressure plus stress.

I gotta learn my lines!

Man.

But God is here with me so everything will be alright!

Right I gtg eat alr.

Peace out.

You made a way.

2010-03-06T22:52:00.003+08:00

How I wish I never knew you were the same as the others.

Hello.

I had nightmares ytd.

Ongoing.

I woke up crying.

The I hugged my pillow which I named BaoBei since I was 3.

I cried harder.

Laughs.

I was 3/4 asleep still.

So I obviously din knw why I cried.

But I knew I had a nightmare.

I was calling out names.

I don't wanna say the names.

Second time woke up.

Crying still.

I think I din even sleep lor.

Third time.

Woah f**k I'm still crying.

Got very fed up.

Sit up.

Father snoring LOL.

Look at the mirror, FYI, mirror is directly facing my bed.

Realised half my garment was wet.

-.-

Then tears started falling agn.

Auto one sia.

My eyes so special tear without feelings.

Lmao.

I woke up.

Father say someone called Honey called 9 times.

Kakin wake up.

Then freeking no mood plus tired.

Then ate breakfast.

Walked around.

Somebody ton uh then phone now tio cnfiscate -.-

Anyway.

Reached church.

Serving was fun.

Jesus rily made me happy.

WoAiNi Jesus.

You rock.

Then Praise and Worship.

I cried.

I'm so overwhelmed by Daddy.

Memories came back to my mind.

How horrible my life was without Jesus.

I used swear word in every sentence I promise you.

I did bad things.

Practically, my name was "ahLian".

Of course I was a bitch.

It only feel good awhile to be a bitch.

Cause when you go home you realise your friends around you are talking behind your back.

Words like attention seeker , whore , hongster , hiao ahlian, chao ahlian all appeared.

Bet with you a million bucks nothing felt good.

I listened attentively to the Praise&Worship song.

The words were talking to me.

First tear ran down.

Second, third.

Thank You Yaweh , Thank You Yeshua.

FYI, in hebrew Yaweh is God , Yeshua is Jesus.

I love You.

Without Jesus, I could hve ended in some shit.

Well I'm taking too long already.

Peace out.

I can't let you go.

2010-03-05T23:24:00.003+08:00

Does forgetting mean talking to myself delusionally, thinking that someone is there?

Hello.

Well definitely not in the spirits.

Hahh.

I feel like there's a monster living inside me.

I can write a novel telling you how stupid I feel but never explain wht is making me feel this way.

Jesus help.

I'm shouting to You.

I know You hear me Jesus.

Jesus help me.

You sleep in my storms but You are controlling this.

I know.

I am enthroned with You.

I love You.

Tell me Jesus.

Yes, i'm definitely not surprised this choice would have brought me this end.

But I definitely do not expect I would fall.

Pick me up Jesus.

My Saviour.

Be my strength, be my faith.

Jesus, I love You.

Do you hear me ?

Oh yes You do (:

네온 나만 barabwa.

Peace out.

I miss you.

2010-03-05T11:13:00.004+08:00

These days will forget me, reluctantly I'll forget these.

HELLO.

I'm blogging in class.

Cause we are all slcking.

No work :D

Arghfzxcs.

Having headache but don't worry dear (:

I thanked Jesus for my head so He shall heal it !

Hai.

This few days gone through so much.

Whether stupidness or laughters or of love.

Love is defined in diff ways.

Family, friends, special ones.

Hahh (:

So sweet.

Right.

I hate Apple keyboard.

Hard to type sehyy.

Fxxk.

OOPS.

Alright,

smsing people le,

Peace out.

I belong to You.

2010-03-03T21:53:00.002+08:00

Let's look down the memory lane and see if we can find any essence.

NiHao!

These few days have been a lil tense or so.

Common test.

Shoot.

I super last minute can.

Rainy don't say cannot xD

I did almost everything last minute and is still rushing to complete studying plus hand in files on time if possible.

Wow.

Hectic.

Arghfzxcs.

I can't stop thinking of paedophiles aft reading the book Broken.

Shucks.

Right erm.

I posted cause parents fetched me home early from my Granny's (:

Oh by th way,

despite my hectic schedule,

I still spend time with Jesus.

Oh ya and,

today a conflict between my two friends,

made me pursue the answer and definition to happiness, tolerance and friends.

Do voice out if you have any thoughts or random on the spot comments :D

OH YA AND,

My fringebangs rock.

Facebook for more details.

Hven't add me?

Brenda Hearts Jesus.

I don't mind you adding me even if you are a stranger.

So long as you are mentally sound.

ROFLMAO :D

Peace out.

Back to back.

2010-02-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

You are once a goner, now you're worse than a loser, but look I've made it.

Hi!

LOL, I'm too friendly talking to like thousands of people on MSN.

I pwn you man.

\m/

Oh yeaaaaah.

HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay.

I went to church.

And practically did the same things.

I only feel like posting this.

I had double chocolate.

& Chikiat and Belle share with me.

One tell me blanjah one say lazy buy.

Ftw ._.

Walau.

Then in the end they share with me ._.

LOL lor.

Okay.

Next.

I dont think I feel like posting bout church.

Cause I rily exhausted plus lazy.

LOL.

I met Rainy ytd aft helping Anna with paperwork (:

HAHAHAHA.

Srsly, why go cut your fringe Rainy?

WHY?!

HUH?!

But still you look good :D

I'm praising you.

Say thankyou.

Then disturb me luhh.

YOU GOOD.

Want candid me luhh.

EVEN BETTER.

Fine , SUA , ttmh.

Alright luhh,

My father very noisy.

Must go bathe le.

Peace out.

Where's the love?

2010-02-26T22:23:00.003+08:00

My mask is smiling , my eyes are calling for help, I'm sad.

Hi.

I am exhausted.

Plus no mood.

Wht's this man?

I have PMS.

But my PMS this time is emo.

LOL.

Hai.

I feel like an idiot sending lotsa smileys over MSN.

Cause I am not smiling.

Ftw.

Emo sounds so guailan sia.

Sad.

Sounds more civilised LOL.

I feel like a paikia.

LOL.

I'm not lor.

Just frustrated and veryvery pekchek and that I am going to break down feeling.

If it was allowed,

I'd make a song with only vulgar.

Yeah, then keep listening then aft tht happy liao.

LOL.

Just kidding (:

Okay this smile is real LOL.

Pb luhhh.

What's the value of being someone who is always happy ?

Well if you ask, I dont know rily.

Let's ask Jesus.

I'll tell you the next time I find out from this guy named Jesus (:

LOL,

I'm going to find a hole and stay inside till i finally stop PMS-ing.

Peace out.

How you like it.

2010-02-23T22:27:00.003+08:00

Shut up and eat your shit, I know I'm mean.

Hello.

I guess I'm not gon post bout the emergency exercise at school.

Tooo tired.

Well I'll tell you excatly how I feel right now.

I feel like a teenage girl tangled and knotted into one whole bunch of people named TheSociety.

It sucks when you hang out too much with "TheSociety" cause they just brainwash you.

Well if you might ask, "TheSociety" is a bunch of adults who blindly follow .. the society -.-

They are people with hearts, some of gold.

SOME.

Mostly with the words : I'm Selfish written on their face.

Cool huh ?

(Not.)

Where money and news and reality envelopes them and covers all the fun they can have like when they were a child.

Well this post isn't directed to my parents if you might think,

rather to this society filled with unhappiness and just another hectic life like any other.

I'd never wanna be like them of course, I'll never find the things I love to do as a teenager again!

I might even forget adolescence.

Wow, that's the scariest thing ever.

Hahh.

Time flies.

HOW FAST DOES IT FLY ?

That's the question.

It depends on how you spend it.

If you spend it doing the things you love, you might think it flies real fast.

So if you're one of those who facebooks or tweets and posts : Time flies etc. ,

good for you.

Your'e loving life ;)

Vice versa for someone who isn't.

Okay, I read you I read you.

Why is Brenda suddenly so serious ?

I'm not!

That's how I express myself I guess.

?(:

Idk ._.

Alrights ,

I nda go sleep -.-

Shucks.

Peace out.

Details make love transparent.

2010-02-20T23:55:00.003+08:00

In Him I will rest , In God I wll trust - Jesus my fortress , my shelter.

Hello!

Today is awesome Dare !

And for the first half of the dare service , my face was ):

Then after preservice my face is (:

YAY!

Why ?

DGLs chose me to represent sec 2 to do the chinese don't forget the lyrics.

So freeeeeeking embarassing.

LOL.

I like got PMS.

Right F.Y.I. , PMS = Pre Menstrual Syndrome = Emoing before period comes.

Let's take it as everyone here is mature so i'm gon be open (:

If you think I'm disgusting , grow up.

Okay right let's not digress.

Then I went up.

The emceeeee is hilarious :D

So it kinda loosen me up (:

Then I had to sing __

So I sang.

But practically , NOBODY heard me.

Except Samantha ._.

Idk if she heard wrong uhh ( Sorry sam ) , but I think she heard the Cyndi Wang.

LOL.

But I did sing srsly.

LOL.

Okay then I got a box of choclates tht I shared with the other Befrienders (:

Then ate with DG , go level 4 church office help with prep for MeetTheParents session :D

Then went with DG to ION then walked around then homed.

Btw my DG got newcomer named Nicholas ! :D

Nice big guy we've got there ! (:

That's all :D

Oh ya in the middle of it ,

We played DRAMA.

I acted like a AmericanBitch with me classic , "WASSUP YO" with the high-pitch bitchy voice (:

Man I love me xD

P.S. God , I love you.

Peace out.

Cheaters and liars.

2010-02-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

Another right look got me dancing round the room , another touch got me running round the clouds.

Hello.

Justin Bieber rocks.

His songs rock actually.

Right he rocks as well.

Not as much as Rain & G-Dragon.

Rain is the best korean dancer I've seen.

EVER.

Okay anyway.

Today school starts.

It was tiring at first.

Man trust me I hate sprinting.

I tried the 100m.

F , I almost fell.

And I was the last one ._.

I srsly can't run.

In fact tht was the first time I did a sprint in my whole life ._.

-.-

Lmao.

Then when I walked I realised my ankle was a lil pain.

I sprained.

But not veryveryvery pain.

Should be the bones pressing my nerves.

Arghfzxcs , on my nerves.

Roflmao.

Then whole day like pai ka -.-

Walau.

Then aft school stayed back fr class formation.

Learnt the chengyao dance :D

Man I learn fast :D

LOL , bhb.

._.

I got hip hop dance backgrnd wht you want.

Wht to do ?

Then Ruby & Elvina detoured and came back to school for me !

Loves ! ^^

They even bought me choco milktea w/o pearl :D

(Y) !

Muahaha.

Then slacked arnd.

Wnt Montip , however you spell it.

Got hotpink squiggly rubberband for my hair :D

(L)s (:

Homed.

Then the rest go figure it yourself.

LOL.

I found my ezlink behind a small box ?

-.-

LOL.

Okay I nda sleep , Supergirl nda rest :D

Peace out.

In every season.

2010-02-16T21:57:00.002+08:00

My Jesus, my Saviour.

Hello.

Man I had a loooong day.

So yeah I went out with Alvina Chan , EXCLUSIVELY.

We went to ION.

Saw my senior.

Omf she looks so diff from her blog I can't recognise her , UNTIL I SAW THE EXTENSIONS THAT LOOK SO REAL :D

But she's still chio (:

ANYWAYS , we were looking for Uniqlo.

NONO , before that I asked Alvina wht she was looking for.

Then blabla then went to new look.

I saw PVC jacket ._.

Mannn , I want one.

._.

Okay anw , I kinda triggered Alvina's memory then she rmb she wanted to get a dress.

TOO BAD , she only has 50 bucks.

So we went to look for Uniqlo.

Walk halfway she say she lost her wallet -.-

Ftw luhhh.

Then went back burger king which we were at before we even went to new look.

Then we asked the staff.

Thank God she found it , the money still inside somemore.

Lucky bum.

Sneak you into a little secret.

Alvina Chan I was praying for you.

Better thank me , I'm a blessing xD.

Then we went Uniqlo.

I tried my jeans.

SUCKED.

Then i want buy the denim one.

49.90 -.-

Ftw , I bought my ONTO headphones then bo $ ):

Then left for Lido.

Bought tix for Percy Jackson & the lightning thief.

Then slacked for two hours plus.

Bought cheesy hotdogs one large rootbeer.

LOL.

Then movie.

IT WAS FxxK AWESOME.

If you never watch you'll regret it.

REALLY REGRET.

REALLY REALLY REGRET.

HAHA.

Alright (:

Rainy's back!

So I gottagoooo (:

Peace out.

Good morning sun.

2010-02-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

I've been shouting to you , I know you hear me.

Hello.
I AM EXHAUSTED.
F.
Damn I feel like sleeping can.
Arghfzxcs.
Anyway , tmrw is deduced to only me and Alvina :D
We're going to FarEast , alright I haven't tell her LOL.
See me in town say Hi uhhh.
LOL.
Okay I lazy post le.
-.-
My eyes closing.
Fzxcs.

Peace out.

See you in the dark.

2010-02-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

Now all along attention span of mine was short.

Ni hao!

My spirits are back upppp !

Yes , if you're thinking , yea Brenda's having mood swings.

So you won't know when is the next minute I'll be emoing again :/

But guess I won't le luhh (:

Oh my God.

I feel like using the f word.

._.

Nono , not angry or pissed or wateva.

Just a random thought.

It's soooo f long since I use the f word.

F , I miss you ):

Laughs!

Arghfzxcs.

So wht will I be doing tmrw ?

I'll wake up late , obviously -.-

Then in the afternoon will rot plus homework, well parents wanna go OG that machiam cheeeeep place so i'll not follow :/

Then at night go visiting.

Then on Tues , ahhhhhh , here comes the fun part !

Am going out with Ryan , Jennifer and Alvina.

Right Alvina may join us , & I sure hope she will cause only Ryan , Jen and Me would suck :(

So yeah !

And yeaaa , wed Rainy is coming back !!!

(Y)

*jumps around as if she just got into heaven*

We can continue our text & call marathons again !

Giggles.

I miss those messages and calls that made me laugh and smile :}

Yay , so excited.

Then of course that's the day school's starting and crapcrap then Friday!

Friday I'll be out !

So if you see me in town do shout BHJBL !

F.Y.I. BHJBL means BrendaHeartsJesusBubblyLum

That's the secret codeee ;)

Alright , can't be too longwinded , I know people HATE reading long posts :D

Peace out.

Gone somewhere.

2010-02-14T16:18:00.003+08:00

I will prefer the stars to kiss me no more.

Hello.

Today I rotted.

Because nobody text me.

I mean like ya of course people did but the conv din last long.

I miss Rainy.

Now no one texts me as much.

Arghfzxcs.

I don't feel sick, but funnily, so lethargic.

Hah , now I feel like a paedophile staring at my cousin's photo.

I feel like going out.

Cause practically my parents idea of a new year is sleeping. -.-

I'm too lazy to start homework.

Well though I know I can fin it within 2 hours but,

right well noone cares.

F , nobody is texting me.

I hate rotting.

Feel so gay now.

Peace out.

Forever and forever it'll be.

2010-02-13T22:36:00.003+08:00

All I can see is a silouhette bidding me farewell.

Hello ! :D

Sorry , I've gotta stop the story for this post cause there's too much I wanna say ! (:

Alright , today is a veryveryvery sad day as well ...

Rainy went to Genting ! D:

But I promised not to be sad.

So , :D

Hai ...

But still ...

Alrights (:

Er ...

Shit i forget wht I wanna say.

Oh yaaa , so i practically rot today :D

But after reunion dinner , it was kinda okay (:

At least I had something to do (:

Ehh ...

Uh I nothing to say ?

HAHA ,

HappyCNY !

I will reply tags asap (:

Peace out.

It just began.

2010-02-09T09:52:00.002+08:00

I try to read between the lines , I try to find the words , but look there's just nothing hidden in those eyes.

Chapter 2:

I've walked a few miles round my neighbourhood with the torn book in my hand.

Nobody.

Everyone is gone ?

No this can't be.

Maybe I just walked in circles.

Someone must be out there.

"Hello ?"

I heard somebody.

"Is someone there ?"

I saw someone.

Oh my God I saw someone !

I ran.

It was Penny.

She ran towards me.

Overwhelmed , we hugged each other and cried.

Somebody's alive.

My friend's alive.

But two girls to fend for themselves ?

A little impossible.

But there was no choice.

"What's that in your hands ?" she asked.

"This ? Bible."

"Of all things , why this bible ?" her face now skeptical.

I shrugged.

I didn't know the answer myself.

We wiped the tears off our face and continued walking.

We couldn't find anybody.

We tried our houses.

What was left was rubble.

We were yet too weak to find at least the bodies of our families.

Both of us were injured.

We knew this can't last very long.

We need food.

We need water.

We need rescue.

End of chapter 2 ,

To be continued...

Hello and goodbyes.

2010-02-07T10:03:00.004+08:00

This is the last straw - your innocence is feeding my anger.

Hello.
I decided not to post about this week.
Cause as usual , God made so many miracles happen I'm so used to it.
It's all testimony.
Text me , email me for requests on my testimonies.
I shall start with a story.

Chapter 1:

Run my fingers through my hair.
Bent down low , covered my wet face.
Going crazy , I screamed to the rubble.
Nobody was there.
Is God there ?
Can He hear me ?
Doubting that Man above for everything that happened overnight , I tore the pages of the Bible I found.
Is He really the King of my situations ?
Why did He allow suffering ?
It's all nonsense.
Everything happened overnight.
It stole my friends.
Stole my family.
It almost stole my life.
How I wish it killed me.
That monster.
I looked at the only thing left.
The bible.
I read the page I had torn into half.
"He is my refuge and my fortress; My God , in Him I will trust."
My face was salty.
Tears fell into the pages.
What is He trying to say ?

End of Chapter 1 ,
To be continued ...

The cost to know you.

2010-02-06T23:58:00.002+08:00

Benefit of a doubt ; the tactless words that never affect you.

Hello!

Okay not as high anymore cause something spoiled my mood, -.-

I don't like it when I get pissed off makes me feel so HOT.

Hot as in ... Okay nehmind xD

HAHA.

Damn I love my cheekbones !

They make my face look slimmer when I smile (:

LOL.

Sorry I din post on friday , I was too tired from laughing the whole afternoon in school class 2B watching antics of Curtis trying to mimick Mr.Krishnan and I was literally rolling on the floor xD

What Da had baby crapcrapcrap xD

I feel like crying cause it made me ROFLMAO.

okay , sorry i digressed , back to track.

TODAY SERVICE WAS AWESOME !

I lazy type out everyth but still , IT WAS AWESOME !

And time like fly so fast for me and school was quite fun (:

Thank God foreasy days man !

God is AWESOME.

Right I am too tired to post , so lethargic cause i'm SICK.

Peace out.

Humming the silence.

2010-01-31T09:31:00.002+08:00

I never would have thought that when you said no I'd say whatever.

Hello.

Right , I'm freeking diss tht I can't serve at Sunday's Love Attack.

Previously the reason was tht my mum wanted me to go to her shop.

But I neh fin my hmewk ytd ,

so now the reason is , HOMEWORK.

-.-

I WANT TO SERVE GOD.

Or not only Emily andand David go 2nd svc de ._.

Awww , I feel like an EXTRA xD

Lols.

Urmmm , how's the new song on my blog ?

._.

Right ...

I don't rily have anything t post ):

I'll post this coming friday ?

Or someday when I gotta use comp :D

For nw ,

Peace out.

I never told you.

2010-01-30T23:09:00.002+08:00

You never see through my eyes , when you ought to.

Hello.

Today is a rotting day :D

Cause all I did was sleep , eat , crap , mugged (:

And expressed myself by singing (:

So I sang rock songs.

NOT heavy metal please.

._.

LOLs.

Right , I am like chatting to thousands of people.

LOL.

But still I can concentrate on blogging :D

I am SUPERGIRL , I can multitask (:

HAHA , tht song's nice (:

Rainy was singing xD

HAHAHAHA.

Woah ~ Woah ~

RAINY I knw you won't get mad :D

Right.

David just gave me a tip on being serious when it comes to stopping dota.

DOTA is a freeeking addiction tht is not rily annoying but sometimes , RARELY , something tht breaks r/s.

Cause when you call SOMEONE and tht SOMEONE is DOTA-ing , tht SOMEONE responds three seconds later to wht you just said.

-.-

But I hope tht SOMEONE , will tell me if playing dota , cause i will not call if you are playing so tht i don't piss meself off :D

I won't be angry if you tell me ._.

LOL xD

Rights ,gotaa go ,

Peace out.

Stop talking.

2010-01-30T10:20:00.004+08:00

Show me how show me how you'd react , cause all i'll do is dance my night long.

Hello.
Okayy , promised to post more bout this wk (:
This wk was okay ._.
Nothing much actually.
Just quarrel abit w. Alvina Horseyy.
Then okay le luhh (:
:D
Right due to popular demand ,
I shall talk more about myself.
-.-
Since people wanna knw me , why nt.

10 things I can't live w/o :
-Jesus
-God
-Girl'sHipHop
-Skateboard ( Which is alr gone T.T )
-My phone
-My hoodie
-Music
-My hair
-Pink -.-
-&& the last one , not to be revealed (:

Things I do , not doing it means dying.
-DANCE.
-Skateboarding ( Now become see people skateboard , OMF I feel like killing myself T.T )
-Singing (I don't have audiences , it's just something I do to build my vocals so I can project my voice better.)
-Texting. ( In one week I use fin my $100 prepaid ._. )
-SHOPPING. ( You have to keep yourself up sometimes. )
-Making friends. ( I say hello to people I don't knw, believe me , most say Hi back (: )

I hate people doing things like :
-Pangseh/Abandoning me. ):
-Last minute say cnt go out. ( F YOU. )
-Quarelling w. me ( For no good reson -.- )
-Giving stupid comments , when they themselves do it.
-Calling themselves a bitch or bastard , and are so PROUD about it ._.
-Pinching my butt ( Alvina , ya it's you )
-Attracting attention ( I don't David ._. )
-Playing ridiculous pranks. ( I can take pranks but pranks tht are rily overboard , sorry but no.)
-Tickling me. ( I scream real loud , real LOUD.)
-Talking behind my back. ( I don't mind if you insult me in my face , I accept comments. But if you dare talk behind me , when I mean business I will NEVER forget though I'll forgive.)
-BOYS , who actually gossip. ( It's called GAYSHIT. )

Right tht's all.
IF YOU RILY WANNA ASK MORE TAG OR MSN OR SMS ME ?
(:
And the skateboard is not fingerskateboard -.-
Rights ,

Peace out.

So close to a fall.

2010-01-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

Warn me before you fly me away , cause i don't like that feeling of being abandoned.

Hello.

Today , is a RUINED day.

But I'm still happy (:

Cause everything ended with a positive note ^^

HAHA.

I abit lazy post .___.

Oh yaa , some MAJOR EVENTS :

Timetable changed to a terrible one.

Tired.

Rainy is funny xD

Alrights , tmrw post more ?

Peace out.

The way you talk.

2010-01-27T22:44:00.005+08:00

Get out of my head , you indecisive monster.

Hello.
Okay , i'm like in a rush to complete this blog post (:
Er er er ,
this few days abit vexed.
A little cause of hmewk and cause of the lil indecisiveness in me.
Hmmm.
Had heart to heart talk w. Rainy (:
Nice talk (:
I hope everyday's like today ,
so slow and so peaceful , so quiet , so simple.
But life w/o ups and downs has no meaning.
And a life w/o sadness , is boring.
The world is crushing me in the hands of my own indecisiveness.
I am hurting alot of people.
:/
I guess , it's time to stop being a child.
And I should start learning from the insults of others.
It's time for change.

Peace out.

Bonjour , my new friend.

2010-01-24T11:14:00.003+08:00

The silence isn't so bad , till I look at my hands and feel sad , cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.

Hello.

If you are wondering where I got my quote from ...

It's from Vanilla Twilight by Owl City.

First song on my blog.

Ryan intro oneee (:

Nice lehhh ?

Thanks dude ! :D

(Y)

The song so meaningful (:

Gogogogo listen :>

Uhmmmmm , let me think.

HAHA , RAINY tagged me (:

Laughs.

Call me MARIA -.-

Nehmind uhh nehmind (:

I dao you the next time we meet.

Inside joke inside joke.

Srsly very funny (:

HAH , Sunday is always so ...

SUNNY and and and DROWSY and and and STUDYble.

LOL.

Then next day got MondayBluessss.

Aww man.

SO TIRING.

Know wht ?

I hate PE.

Why ?

Cause when got Physical Conditioning my whole night will be ouchyyyy.

Then my friday will be ruined with sleepiness -.-

RARRH.

Alrights , go update something else le ,

Peace out.

That's why you are my favourite.

2010-01-23T23:39:00.002+08:00

I'd send a postcard , or maybe a handwritten letter , just so you would read me and get here.

Hello.

Today is a fine day.

At least better than school.

So went to dg , I think I almost cried during praise and worship cause i got little emotional upon hearing wht Anna said and everything.

Then dg dinner-ed.

Home-ed

Called someone.

It was soooooo funny.

People laugh until stomach pain ,

I don't knw why I laugh till shoulders pain ._.

HAHAHAHA.

Srsly very funny.

Rainy if you read this ...

RAINY !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Okayy luhh.

Enough.

Later RAINY angry xD

Hmmm ....

Tmrw I think I will call people agn ,

AFTER HOMEWORK AND REVISION.

Muggggggging with God tmrw ^^

Okayy , I promise RAINY I go bathe ,

Peace out.

The day we stood up.

2010-01-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

And friends are friends forever , if the Lord is Lord of them.

Hello !

HAHA.

So today was a rather boring day.

But I kinda love Art (:

I can actually draw a car 3D (:

Oh yaaaaa ,

I won Diagnostic test !

(Y)

OMG , you knw wht ?

This is the first time I actually won for English Essay Writing.

I knw why.

Cause I prayed and annointed my table and pen before I started :D

GOD IS AWESOME.

I rily do feel so blessed in my studies than before when I rily couldn't concentrate and would just end up copying or maybe giving my a slipshoddddyy work.

I nowadays like very addicted to talking on the phone and I don't know why -.-

Like so fun LOL.

Oh yaaaa , my ting xie !

Gt a lot of careless -.-

My school standard srsly veryvery high.

Got wht stupid zao ju.

Lucky I knw luhh , Alvina left it blank xD

She was giving her retarded exp when she is pissed.

Always like tht , freaking retard xD

Not going gym anymore D:

Cause only me and david go -.-

The others , like chain reaction like tht all cnt go ._.

Then in the end cancelled.

David sounded dead.

LOL.

He went to Yishun to train and by the time he replied my call it was like 9 plus ?

And he was still at Yishun LOL.

Then he go bck home nd 1 hr LOL.

Sounds baddd.

Then call other people talk talk talk talk crap crap crap ,

and here i am posting (:

I think i go update something else then sleep alr ,

Peace out.

These are the stops.

2010-01-20T20:08:00.002+08:00

There's a rose and a gun , I choose the gun.

Hello ! :D

I'm bored ._.

I learn ting xie aft this and the another update (:

Aiyoooo.

I think I nd buy new bag.

My bag srsly look old.

But my parents don't want.

Idiot.

They say must spoil then can buy.

I shall make a hole in it.

Joking uhh.

My mum for sure knw I fake de luhh , LOL -.-

Shittyshitshitshit!

I lost Mdm Pey's book ._.

I think a lot of people in myclass lost lor ...

I don't even knw the title of the book liao can !

-.-

Thenthenthen the NYAA shit I also not very clear wht isit.

Aiyoooo.

Uhhh , I go figure out my things ,

Peace out.

All of the above.

2010-01-20T16:29:00.002+08:00

I'll wear my magical mask and close my eyes to fly away from this world.

Hello.

I am quite angry , more of disappointed.

But not very luhh.

Still can smile (:

Today was a busy day (:

Then aftr school I looked forward to me and Emily's lunch.

F !

She say she can't make it cause her mum off -.-

She neh sms me or anything wait until I call her then tell me -.-

Bloodyholes.

I think I almost shouted the f word when I was on the bus.

Pangseh me.

Everytime last minute say one siaaaaaa.

Nehmind let's not talk about this tragedy , spoil my mood only.

So I why I use comp ?

Literature (:

I a bit lazy read the book luhh.

So I think I read alr then write down my points then look through the internet for some more points or something like tht.

Then science.

Tht one easy luhhh cause I understand wht (:

Okayy no more le.

Some private schools start school on Monday leh.

Like just this Monday.

-.-

Not faaaaaaaaaairrrr !

RARRH.

Hai.

Okay i think I go bathe le then homework then use comp baaa (:

For the time being ,

afks (:

Peace out.

Sense is another feel.

2010-01-18T18:40:00.002+08:00

It doesn't make sense for you to revolve around my cycle because it only made sense if I had known you when I was away.

HI , agn (:

I am freeeeking bored.

I still haven't do Maths :X

But still got like don't know how many hrs ,

can one luhh (:

This friday I will help Alvina know SenYao better -.-

So SenYao if you are reading this sms me :D

I want to go pcc lehh (:

Then can see Charrr , if she's there luhh (:

So so so so long neh see my Charmaineeeeeeeeee liao D:

RARRH!

I must meet her this friday :D

Let's see.

Hmmm.

Ohyaaaa ,

I knw this is old news but do you all rmb the idiot who ripped photos off people's blog and claimed it hers ?

The Ammeara or something , name so difficult spell -.-

Here's a recap of everything :

She is a Thai , just come Singapore last year.

Started ripping off pics frm other people blog , claimed it as hers.

She even claimed that other's ex boyf is her boyf -.-

LAME can ._.

She hacks into accounts of many AhLians.

Okay so now you know her (:

Guess wht ,

I saw her today.

Like OhEmGeez only.

Of course I felt like going up to kill her or something cause she made alot of my friends angry.

But I didn't.

Thenthenthen here comes the crazy part.

She walks past me and stare at me , while walking backwards.

As if she know me -.-

I glared at her then she walked away.

Like who the hell cares.

She's known on the internet for mimicking people only lor.

RIPPER.

LOL.

Spoil my mood.

-.-

Enough of her.

I am going to do my work and surf more net ,

Peace out.

You are hesitation.

2010-01-18T16:27:00.002+08:00

The ailment of you being the invader of my happy ending.

Hello !

Today I am happy -.-

LOL.

Causecause.

Erm.

cause DnT so fun.

& I actually understand Science when no human freaks understand arnd me (:

Yay.

Cause I prayed before this chapter start lor :D

I am going to pray everytime the cher starts a new chapter :D

Then can understand fully (:

Okayyy ermm :/

I was supposedly going to update my tumblr and onsugar but I guess I'll leave it for later.

OhEmGeeez.

Todayy got shocking news also !

Shhh.

Shut your gap Brenda.

Okay erm ,

I feel like changing blogskin agn -.-

I knw I very lame but ...

If got time uhhh (:

Tmrw got maths D:

Not alot of theory , lots of writing but :/

Still fun luhh (:

I like my Ms Chum (:

But she not as story-teller type as Ms Ng uhhh D:

But Ms Ng DM , so is like got good got bad.

HAHA , why I sound like someone whose english sucks to the core?

Okay yes i am a person whose english suck to the core -.-

Oh yaaaa ,

today I read alot of AhLian blog uhh ,

WALAN EH the english machiam good leh !

-.-

My english like wht like tht ._.

Aiyo.

Oh yaaa , alot people love my new specs !

So happpyyy.

Maybe not buying the geeeek specs was the right choice (Y)

Okay , enough of crapping ,

I nda update smth elseeee (:

Peace out.

Hide me in the wardrobe.

2010-01-17T11:05:00.002+08:00

Your eyes make me wonder and ponder , will this be forever ?

Hello.

I'm tired of people asking me this same question.

Do you have a boyf ?

NO , I do not.

Fine , stop asking already.

Aren't you tired ?

I am.

-.-

This world is so rar rar !

Okay.

Let's get back to the topic.

So ,

I've decided not to think so much.

Because it won't help.

God is helping and I know it.

In some way or another , I don't see it now.

But my eyes bring me to the future.

I believe.

Enough.

Let's see.

I have a sudden thought of cutting bangs agn !

HAHA.

But hor ,

bangs like very AhLian.

Then then then my parents want me cut say fringe very AhLian -.-

But srsly lorrr bangs even more AhLian okayyy.

Then my fringe also very annoying you see.

Then fly around or not tio caught -.-

Sian ttm.

Wht to do leh ?

If I cut bangs , later not nice how ?

Okay this is crappy nehmind.

Let's see.

Erm.

I forgot wht I wanted to type .__.

LOL.

Oh yaaa !

CNY I going overseas.

I think.

So I can pon school :D

But miss lessons very ma fan one leh.

Wht if cher teach Algebra when I'm out of town ?

Damn !

Fine , my parents shall go alone.

LOL.

Okay.

Erm.

Uhh !

CNY anyone want to go out ?

As in other than the first 3 days of CNY.

Nehmind , I knw everybody's out (:

Okay , I crapped too much ,

Peace out.

Bring me back home.

2010-01-16T23:02:00.003+08:00

I'm lost in the midst of whisperings and hiding.

Hello.

I ain't feeling any better.

I feel screwed up.

Like like like as if ...

Never mind , this is a public blog.

I am leaving it all to Him.

I really very lost luhh.

Like how the hell do I fit in , anywhere ?

Though I may be a befriender.

I get people to fit in.

But I don't even fit myself.

How the hell am I supposed to do tht ?

I fail luhh.

GOD , why is everything so screwed ?

I am not perfect yes ,

but look at my good points too.

People are looking at the ugly side of me.

And when they do the more they start doing it.

As if they are addicted to me being some shit.

But I am someone different inside.

Nobody sees it except God.

Not even my closest of friends.

Not even those who had heart to heart talk with me.

Who am I if you ask me ?

It's ironic if I said I'm this and that.

Cause you don't say you are this and that and tell people.

Just doesn't make sense.

God knows me more than I do.

Believe me.

I am tired of this life.

And I haven't gave up all these studying and churching only because of Jesus.

Because He wants me to continue ,

and I know He's telling me to walk , and He'll show me the way.

And God has really gave me the word.

I won't say it.

Cause somethings are better left unsaid.

I feel like I'm revealing too much.

I wanna just explode and tell people everything.

But there is nobody for me to confide in.

Is either they don't know the people , or they simply are people involved.

Like Alvina , I feel so frustrated typing out a post.

I am trying veryveryvery hard to hold back my tears.

Omg ,

I srsly can't type anymore or i'll burst.

Peace out.

Don't say anything.

2010-01-15T23:14:00.002+08:00

Hello again (:

Okay , I decide to settle all my FAQs while I was MIAing.

Qn 1 : Are you a mixed blood ?

Ans : No , I am not (: I wished I was but , nope (:

Qn 2 : Do you put eyeliner ?

Ans : Absolutely not when I am in school or church. (:

Qn 3 : Do you put fake lashes or mascara ?

Ans : Nope , I don't do anything to my lashes because they are natural , I don't curl it either (:

Qn 4 : Do you dye your hair ?

Ans : No , not tht i know of the year 2008 & 2009 (:

Qn 5 : What do you think of school ?

Ans : Firstly , I used to go school for friends , but now , I go to school purely for studies and my own future.

Qn 6 : Do you always get caught my the discipline heads ?

Ans : Not always , sometimes (:

Qn 7 : Are you a flirt ?

Ans : I treat boys and girls the same , so if you think I'm a flirt , then i may be a lesbian as well (:

Qn 8 : Where do you update yourself with songs ?

Ans : Listen to all kinds of music , even oldies (: Where ... For me to know , for you to find out (:

Qn 9 : Where do you get quotes ?

Ans : Most of them is wht I rily feel in the very bottom of my heart , very little from lyrics :D

Qn 10 : What about your pictures ?

Ans : Getty , or deviant art , etc. etc. (:

Qn 11 : Are you friendly ?

Ans : If you are not a very guai lan person , I should be very very good friends with you (:

That's all.

Finally , or not people satrt asking agn (:

Okay ,

that's all ,

Peace out.

When you met me , you said bye.

2010-01-15T22:32:00.003+08:00

Don't forget the days are nearing , moment by moment , the days we spend will then be shorten.

Wasssuuupppp !

So many days i neh post ...

Sorrryy D:

About my recent facebook wall post ,

thanks for the concern ,

if you ask me ,

no I am not okay ,

abit stressed ,

so if anyone pisses me off i will cry straight away ,

so is like you hold it for very long and when someone rily pisses you off you explode.

Like yesterday,

my father was being extremely unreasonable so my immediate reaction was go into the room , slam the door and cry to sleep.

I wasn't crying , I was shouting it all to God until I finally slept.

The next morning everything was okay.

Then I went to school.

BORING ,

I had to go home alone cause I guess nobody just notices i exist luhh , so my parents drove me back and everything lor (:

Then I got my awesome specs ,

if you wanna see the specs ,

same old thing , go facebook (:

Then today talked to so and so,

i shouldn't say it.

Then I felt a bit better luhh cause so and so was very funnny XD

Okay ,

tmrw going church , hope i will feel better , hope people don't treat me like the wall uhh.

Peace out.

Bury the castle.

2010-01-10T00:27:00.002+08:00

The way i go , is the way you will follow.

Supp.

Just had a convo with so and so.

I lazy say who , you all should knw luhh.

Basically,

I just got lectured by David.

Because of something.

But never affect me luhh so no big deal.

And I feel a teeny bit down you can say mainly because of something.

Involved with so and so.

The so and so is not who you think , also not who you think are not.

So you guys will never know who the people are.

I feel a lil sad cause I can't help much.

And I don't even knw wht and who exactly is involved.

I guess if I should knw then I would knw luhh.

Somethings are beyond your imagination,

and I don't feel happy when people arnd me are not.

Okay , let's talk about positive things!

I am going to get my new specs this coming friday!

It is black , thin frames , pink streak at the sides.

It is an AWESOME spec!

Too bad not geek one luhh , my father don't allow and i don't know why -.-

LOL.

Went to church.

It was fun , in some way or another (:

I feel so mono now.

Mono as in like no mood, like neutral but abit to the sad side kinda neutral.

Nvermind if you don't understand.

I feel so confused suddenly like ,

Why suddenly , I know so much ?

Why suddenly God pushes me so far from the very AWESOME forest I was standing in to the SCARY edge of the cliff ?

Guess He wants me to learn.

Peace out.

Tik Tok parody.

2010-01-09T08:54:00.001+08:00

Lyrics:

Wake up in the morning feeling like Winehouse
Grab my breezer, Im out the door Im gonna be really loud
Cuz I dont care who I piss off yeah Im a real big sinner
Sometimes I eat my dessert before my dinner

Talking odd socks on my toes, toes
Taking off all my clothes, clothes
Feeling overexposed,
So I put back all of my clothes back on

Flush before I wee, wee
Get arrested daily, ly
Trying to get a peak of some titties

Im mad, really bad
But dont tell my mum & dad
Pucker up kiss my but
Cuz Im bloody fucking nuts
Hear the bass, skinny waist
Now lets copy pokerface like.... whoa

Im mad, really bad
But dont tell my mum & dad
Pucker up kiss a nut
Cuz it sells to be a slut
Hear the bass, skinny waist
Now lets copy pokerface like whoa

I stay out till 11 when my curfew is 10
Night sweetie SHUT UP MUM IM ON MSN!!!
Now the girls are lining up becuz were pussy sailin
But we punch em in the mouth if theyre not sarah palin

Talkin bout doin things well regret, gret
Menthal cigarette, rette
Butt plugs in his pet WHOA!

Text sex on my Samsung,
Not telling dad mum rung, rung
Have sex with Alexa Chung
By telling her Im well hung (Im quite well hung)

CHORUS

This is the part where the rap breaks down
This is the part where the drums go POW
This is the part where your balls sag down
This is the part where your pants go brown
This is the part where your dad goes off on a cold Christmas eve to get some more milk but he never comes back, and seventeen years later you find out that hes had a whole fucking family with some Spanish bitch and he doesnt even know your name anymore.

A step by another.

2010-01-09T00:29:00.003+08:00

You shot me refine , and I can't define.

Supp , again -.-

Due to freakingly boredom , although I am tired LOL ,

I decided to post agn.

Let me see.

Oh ya !

I am changing my specs tmrw :D

I want either a baby pink frame , or a black frame.

No more blue .__.

I've had blue frames for a couple of yrs though I changed my specs a couple of times and all.

Maybe I'll get GEEK specs.

Hmmm ...

Rekindle the joy of being a nerd.

LOLs.

See how uhh.

I can get the frames from Haji ,

but I think I'll have to travel all the way to FarEastPlaza.

Nahhh.

Why am I crapping in the first place ?!

HAHA.

I feel like sleeeeping ,

causeee my eyes are like damn ouchy.

BUT I CAN'T !

I forced somebody to sleep HAHA.

I just realised there are a couple of people arnd me ,

with veryveryvery childish personality.

That , when you are a 14 yr old , or maybe 13 whtever ,

you have to act like one.

Get into cliques ,

act like bitches ,

fold your skirt till they turn into panties ,

copying homework ,

I was once like tht.

But I guess I don't have to do tht anymore.

That's called trend luhh.

You follow the crowd.

I go ahead.

LOL.

And people are trying to ACT korean.

I mean like if you act till you are very similar to one ,

I don't rily care.

But if you act till , from the crown of your head to the sole of your feet you are still a Singaporean ,

it's called AH LIAN.

And people are actually trying to speak Hokkien ,

when they can't even get the freaking word right -.-

And then they act like Ah Lian ,

when they don't get involved with the underworld.

So in conclusion ,

people nowadays are trying to be AH LIAN ,

but making themselves 10% ah lian , 90% bitch.

So it's stupid luhh.

They look more like singaporeans still.

I mean like the future has nothing to do with all these kinda crap uhh.

In other words ,

what has the word , F*CK got to do with the future ?

Just an expression uhh.

And why am I crapping ?

I don't know.

LOL.

Oh ya btw , THIS POST IS NOT DIRECTED TO ANYONE ,

please don't bullshit me.

LOL.

I just did something.

LOL ,

so ,

Peace out.

Walking by the boulevard.

2010-01-08T22:51:00.003+08:00

The split seconds , the adrenaline , they all add up to you.

Supppppppppp.

I'm freakingfreaking annoyed now.

There are cats fighting at the void deck with some freaking bloody dogs.

And then if you knw me I always do the cat woman's aggresive cat sound.

-.-

It sounds exactly the same just tht the cats below sound more high pitch.

AND then my father is watching the tv at a volume louder than my comp.

And my comp is like in the living room.

And I can't watch my videos and listen to my songs.

Because i dont have any bloody headphones.

LOL.

But stilll.

I am absolutely feeling CRAZY now.

I don't know why.

LOL.

I survived week 1.

That's wht everyone is saying on their blog luhhh.

LOL.

Yeahh.

AND there are projects coming up HOMG.

I am going to cry.

This is a busy year.

And please God btr bless my group with people who actually wanna do work and not just chitchat all the way upon embarking on the journey of learning.

LOL.

Sound so chim .___.

LOL.

If you rily knw me ,

this few days haven't rily been good ,

NOT because of ytd night the thing but also for school and all.

If you rilyrily wanna knw why then ask me on msn.

Those who don't have my msn :

brenda_lum_jia_yi@hotmail.com

Yeahhh , if I like you I tell you luhh , if I don't like then f off.

Just kidding :D

I tell you one luhh.

I don't knw you well enough I also tell you one (:

Okay , I gotta go busy some other things like playing online games LOL.

Peace out.

Memories come alive when pictures fade.

2010-01-07T16:37:00.003+08:00

Your inhibitions hide my fear more than anything.

Wassssssssssupppp!

Okay.

I'm currently 30% stressed out.

Because I have to do stupid chinese oral presentation next week.

And then tests are coming up.

And then two years time or 1 year time I got o level liao !

WALAU.

I tell you hor,

if I don't drop higher chinese next year i kill myself.

WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TO MAN?

My schooool's chinese standard is FREAKINGLY HIGH.

GOD.

But nehmind pray 100% can.

Cause I pray for my chers to collect some hmewk next week ,

Kao rily sia.

AWESOMEEEE GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD !

And my hair is no longer like shit when I go to schoooool ! :D

Okay guess wht ,

I SUDDENLY LIKE SCIENCE.

HOMGGGGGzzz.

I HAVE NEVER LIKED SCIENCE.

And this very cher Ms Chin made me like science in 3 days.

WHAT IS THIS ?

THIS IS GOD.

HAHA.

And I suddenly like Maths as well.

Okay , this is such a MIRACLE.

LOL.

I actually did my homework !

I DIDN'T PROCRASTINATE !

YESSSSSSS !

Brenda is OFFICIALLY A GOOD GIRL.

And yay I just made another new friend , HUIYING.

LOL by tagging blog (:

I feel so friendly LOL.

I so jealous siaaaa , she got Mdm pey as lit cher D:

:'(

I WANT MDM PEY!!!

But nehmind , I believe God puts different people in my life.

Everything is for me and not against me :D

I feel so positive to everything I do now LOL.

Okay , enough said , I gotta MUG.

Peace out.